There's too much going on in this world for me to sit down and get my shit together. I need to stop trying to take the weight of the world on my shoulders as an artist. I have enough burdens, enough worries, enough responsibilities.

Yet I feel like there's all this potential energy, all this anger, all this pain, and it has to be put to use somehow.

I don't want the One World Government, at least not in the underhanded way they're trying to achieve it now. I don't want to be a slave to a system that strips me of earnings made from hard work and gives them to a small group of bankers leeching off of everyone else's wealth, wealth based on a system that equates our earnings to debt. The dollar is worth [i]nothing[/i], and since time is money and time is relative, money is both nothing and relative. Nobody's time is worth anything. Nobody's money is worth anything. We live in a world where we are conditioned to covet. The sad thing is, I know this, and yet I'm still unhappy. I don't want to be part of or to know people who will be conscripted in a civilian military force. These things weigh on my shoulders. I am against the current administration and its lies. I am for relegating power back to the States and to the people. I want people to rise up and say they don't want this world anymore. But nobody is doing that.

Even here, in an Art School in fucking California, where you'd expect people to care about where we are going... nobody gives a shit. All everyone gives a shit about are themselves, their futures. I know I should suck it up and realize that I must compromise. That the skills must be learned before anything can be put into action, that I need to be a success in my life in order to change anything, if change is at all possible. But it's hard to motivate myself, because I'm tired of seeing through all the bullshit I have to deal here. There's just so fucking much of it and it makes me sick to my stomach.

I need to make another fucking movie.